The Crazy Month February

Well I guess I tell what has been going on lately.

February 7th
I had my passion party it went OK I was kind of upset with the lady who came because I let her know that my good friend Kirsten was going to be late she gets off at 7 and she was all oh that's OK!! so she started her presentation which was kind of boring but she was almost done so I called Kirsten to see how much longer and she said she was on her way and I told Heather(the adviser) shes on her way. she continued to finish and then immediately started putting stuff away!!! WHAT?!?!? she knew Kirsten was coming why is she putting stuff away and when Kirsten came in every thing was put away and I started showing Kirsten some of the good stuff in the catalog and heather acted all frustrated when I asked her to get something out to show Kirsten some stuff. Ahhh!!! so I was a little upset with all that but I orders stuff from her anyway, then after I ordered everything Shaun gave me another catalog that my friend AprilLynn had and wanted me to have a party from because she said it is a lot more fun, of course he give and tells me this after I order everything, so I am going to have another party some other time with AprilLynn's catalog which I don't know the name of right now.

February 8th
today I wake up all nauseated not felling good and I forgot to do my lesson for my class so I hurry grab the book and get stuff together for a lesson get to church and my class is just going crazy plus I don't feel good so needless to say it didn't go very good. The class is over and we are heading to sharing time and the Valiant 11/12 teacher asks what lesson I gave and I say lesson 7 and she goes all out on me about teaching the wrong lesson and how I REALLY NEED TO TEACH THEM IN ORDER!!!!!!! come on really I don't need this right now is what I was thinking. I apologize and tell her it was an accident and she just keeps rambling on and on about teaching them in order so whatever we go in to sharing time church is finally over I get to go home!!! when we get home I start to pack everything to go to Las Vegas with Shaun's Parents and 2 Sisters YES!!! Vegas here we come baby (Sorry Shaun have fun at work :)

February 9th
I'm in Las Vegas with my Girls (Jaida is so excited she got to miss school to see Grandma:) and Shaun's family And every thing is just making me nauseated the breakfast, the elevators, the buses, and I start thinking maybe I'm pregnant my breast have been hurting for a few weeks now I'm tired all the time and now I feel like throwing up which makes me all excited since we have been trying FOREVER to get pregnant. I text Shaun and tell him I think I might be and we take the girls to circus circus and watch the African Acrobats which are amazing buy the way we saw them in San Diego when Jaida was a month old WOW is all I can say. then we waited for some trapeze couple which was cool but not as cool as the African Acrobats then we took the bus to M&M World to watch the 3D movie which my girls love. popped over to coke cola and did the elevator there and decided to go see the fountains at the Bellagio as we waited for the fountains we froze our butts off man it was COLD the wind was blowing pretty hard but when your with bonnie she always makes things fun then we went back to the resort and I packed everything up had to make a few extra trips up and down because I kept leaving things in the room the drove home that night

February 10th
the moment I woke up I took a pregnancy test waited a few minutes and it was negative went up stairs to get Jaida all ready for school and then next thing I hear is Shaun Yelling upstairs PAM YOUR PREGNANT!!! It just took a little longer to get the plus sign YEAH!!!!! of course being as happy as I was I of course Texted everyone telling them the good news.

February 11th
Shaun's family stops by before they leave to head back home. and I tell them the good news a little after they leave I need to pee for the 5 millionth time and I see blood I start to get a little worried because maybe the test was a false positive it was just a cheap Wal*Mart one then I start getting bad Cramps and start bleeding heavier I finally call Shaun and tell him what's happening and ask him if he thinks we should take another test he says yes. so nervously, worried scared sad,and all different kinds of emotions. I got me and Zoa ready for the day and headed to Wal*Mart to take another test and it says Positive so then I really start to freak out and of course call Kirsten. and then lets just say the next few days have not been very fun mentally and physically it is now
February 16th and the cramping and bleeding has finally stopped. some say I defiantly had a miscarriage and some say there might be a chance the baby is still there and doing fine and I just happened to have a period so I'm hopping for the later but I'm OK with the first. so now I'm just going to get a Doctors appointment and find out what happened for sure and get a DNC if I need one that way I wont end up not being able to ever have kids again that just does not sound like a good thing, so after I make an appointment and find out whats going on I'll let you all know.